Hello, ladies! And I’m going to go ahead and assume its mainly ladies reading my blog because this is about mom stuff, women’s style, beauty and wellness…not much for the dudes here. But I digress.
I’m back! After only a short little two-year break…and yes, that’s little in the grand scheme of, like, earth and life and stuff.
Here’s a recap. I am a stay-at-home mom. I stopped working because honestly, working in corporate retail was sucking the life out of me day by day. And there was no way I was gonna return to that life when I had the opportunity to stay home with my precious little gift from God.
Fast forward four years, and I was yearning for an outlet to be creative and connect with others. So I jumped back into blogging with high hopes. By then, we had another baby boy in the mix. And lets just say, that season of my life was not one of fashion and glamour and all things beauty. I spent my days juggling preschool runs, workouts (necessary for my sanity) naps, along with everyday adventures. Needless to say, my wardrobe consisted mainly of stretchy yoga pants and sneakers. Makeup and flat iron? What were those for?
With all that said, I felt like I wasn’t being me, I wasn’t being honest as a blogger. And even more than that, its didn’t fit into my life. But each season must come to an end. And I have just entered a new season in life and I have felt everything changing. Its crazy, my oldest son is in HALF-DAY kindergarten and my youngest is in HALF-DAY preschool a few days a week. Half. A. Day. I honestly have less time to myself than I did last year. But this entrance into kindergarten changed things. My son is out in the world without me, even without adult supervision on those bus rides. And this new freedom of his has thrown me for a loop! It’s all mental, I know. The hours away are barely different from years past, but the experience for him and I is vastly different.
That first two weeks of school for the boys was hard. I felt like I had fallen into a deep depression. The sadness was heavy, the tears were many. And a big part of it was that I felt lost. My life is defined as being a “stay-at-home mom”. And I got this glimpse of the future with less time with my boys and more time with myself and it freaked me out. “What am I going to do? What the F am I going to do?!” I asked myself. “What are my skills? Do I have any?” These questions weighed on me yet I didn’t have any answers.
A month or so into the school year, the sadness has lifted. The fear has dissipated. Because I’ve prayed. A lot. I’ve asked God to, if not show me answers, to at least ease my fear. And he did. He helped me pull myself up by my boot straps. He showed me that even though change with my children hurts my heart, my life is filled with too many blessings to focus on that little twinge.
So, what am I doing? Again, I have no idea! But this new season feels less chaotic. It feels like I have more time. Time to breath, time to think, time to register what’s happening outside my little bubble. I no longer have crazy little babies and toddlers running around distracting my every thought. So I want to use some this time to use my ideas and creativity again. To connect with others through the world of blogging whether it be about style, beauty, wellness, or just mom stuff.
So, I hope you enjoy what I have to offer. I don’t know when or how often I’ll write, but hopefully sooner than two years 😉
xx Meagan Cafarelli